breaks

i honestly dont understand why people take breaks when they have something good. yea you fight, so what! love is a very strong word! people mis use it way to much. love is a feeling and emotion. love is so much more. when you love someone you stick with that person through everything thick and thin, no matter whats going on in your life, there life, or even the relationship, you will find a way to work things out during the toughest times! breaks make me so mad. they really do. i dont understand them. honestly.there a waist of time. i know im only 15 and parents say your to young to know what love really is. NO ONE KNOWS WHAT IT REALLY IS. unless you want a scientific deffention, it just an opinion and you say whats on your heart. I honestly believe this. and its only your opinion that matters. dont listen to the people who say"your to young to know what love really is." really just be quiet. i bet they were the same way when they were our age. thats what i dont get. I no what love is, cause its my opinion. and no one elses. so i think if you love someone please just stick with them, try and work out everything. then after you have tried everything posssible then do what your heart tells you to do. cause when you lose someone you love, it hurts...

hmmm...

I know now one gets on here except for Sean and Hallah, so maybe yall can help me out???So my day has been everywhere. I went to meet Codie cause he said he wanted to talk. Turns out he was trying to get me back. I was not in the best of moods to begin with so that just made my day worse. He sarted getting up in my face, telling me to stop ignoring is phone calles(after he calls 45 times exactly no exzageration there! I counted!) and to take him back and to stop acting like an butt, I told him NO. He started walking away, he heard me say Wow this is stupid, he comes marcing back with hands in the air like hes about to hit me, and get right up on me, and yells at me. I was scared... I seriously thought he was going to hit me, I was shaking so bad, I got my stuff and hurried out the door, and followed me and blocked my way, and then he started calming down and finally apologized for the way he acted. He doesnt understand that im not going back out with him, ever... even after that. He even tried getting me back when I was dating Blake, he called me over and over and over again even while I would be on the phone with Blake. I know for a fact ive made the right decision cause I know I CAN survive with out Codie! Its like everytime I finally start liking a guy and start dating him he has to interfear with my rellationship and try to get me back, and thats why I always cam home in a bad mood.. and I blow up on people and I ignore people.. cause im afraid I might blow up on them. I told him these exact words"Codie, were not going to date, I come home in a bad mood everydayfrom school. I want move on and live my life with whom I want to live it with? We are only friends from here on out. and if you dont wanna be that then im sorry idk what I can do.I dont love you anymore. Im sorry, its time for you and I both to move on.." he got mad and walked off. Did I do the right thing? yes! I did. but should I even keep him as a friend. cause I dont need friends like that either.. and I dont need th drama in my life. im trying to make better choices on who I hang with and so on people who will infulence me to be a better christian, and live my life the right way, im tired of my life being controlled by this maniack!
whats the best thing to do..???

everything happens for a reason...

thank you for all the advice sean and hallah. im so glad i know i have people to talk to. my life has been pretty rough and im hoping it will all smooth out very soon. i hate being in bad moods. thank you for always being there for me. my week has started out pretty rough but whats been happening im going to now put behind me. i have made a lot of mistakes. little and big, but those are behind me. starting now. eveyrthing happens for a reason. and everything that has happened to me has happened for a reason.. im guessing. ill make the best of it. ive turned down the wrong paths, ive made some wrong choices that will effect my life, and ive lost some of the ones i love. but like i said everything happens for a reason and god im sure has an amazing plan for what im going to do with my life, who ill date..., and anything else. i love each and everyone of yall with all my heart and soul.

randomness

I dont know what to call this one. Im just writing what ever comes to my head. I miss a lot of stuff from the past, and I want to forget a lot of stuff from it also. I dont understand a lot of things, and I dont make the wisest or the right decisions either. Ive made many mistakes, some I wish with all my heart that u could go back and change them. Im confused about a lot of stuff and I wish I had more answers to all my questions. Sometimes I wish life was a fairy tale. happy endings always. but life isnt a fairy tale this is reality. Sometimes there are happy endings but sometimes there arent. Life is such a mystery and I can never figure out the answers. I hate mysterys. I hate when I cant figure out things. There so annoying. blahh. Im on the phone with Blake and he doesnt even believe im listening to him, Cause im typing this and talking to him at the same time. ehh. what ever... :P Hes a dork. anyways. So I wished on a star tonight.i wish i could tell everyone what it is but i cant or else it wont come true. I hate nosey people. I hate conceded people. Well hate is a very string word. I dont like them very much thats better. well thats it for now :) byee