worst day

Kenney is gone. He's really gone. I saw him this morning before he left. He told me to come out to the back parking lot before school started. he was sitting in his truck. We hung out in his truck for about an hour. Then he said he had some bad news to tell me. It was that he leaves for calaforina today. and he gets deployed in 2 weeks. :( i started to cry. i havent stopped crying all day. he is like my big brother hes always been there for me though everything. ive known him since codie and i dated. hes actually best friends with codie. and he is now my best friend ever / big brother. i dont want him to go. and on top of all that i got my dad on my mind. this is awesome. Life isnt so well at the moment. i just dont wana anything to happen to him. it scares me knowing hes going there. and idk what i would do if he got hurt or died or anything happend to kenney. if i had to pick a best guy friend in the whole wide world it woud be kenney weve through so much together and hes leaving me. again... why is it that the people i love the most something bad happens with or between us or they leave me. :'( idk what to do.