Why don't you call me since we don't see each other every day like I do my mom.
Why did you tell me I'm wasn't your favorite?
Why do you act like you don't want me?
Why won't you tell me you love me?
Why do I have to constantly act like something I'm not just to impress you?
Why cant you except me for who I am?
Why wont you just tell me you want me over on the weekend's instead of say come over when you want to?
Why can't you be honest with me?
Why were you never at those band concerts when I was in middle school that you said you would come to?
Are you ignoring me?
Do you not like me?
What do I have to do to get your attention?
Why am I afraid to talk to you?
Is it because I'm afraid of you?
Afraid your going to yell and scream and cuss at me like you did when I was little?
I wish I could just confront you and sit down and have a normal conversation with you.
I cant be like my sister. I'm not as smart or as fast to getting jokes as she is. I'm not your favorite like she is. I'm not a people pleas er like she is, I'm not anything like my sister, why can't you just except that. no one can ever make you happy, you barley talk to me even when I do come over. I love you but it seems like you don't care. I give up. I've written letters, recorded myself on a recorder and sent it to you, I've even tried calling you and you never answer and I leave voice mails you never call back, I've tried texting you, you never text back....
IT FEELS LIKE I'M NOT EVEN YOUR DAUGHTER.
You treat your step daughters more like your daughters then you treat me and i am your daughter. It feels like you care more about them then you do me. I bet you I could just disappear and you wouldn't even notice.
WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME AND DEANNA?
we were only in second and third grade, you were only thinking about yourself, you didn't care about me or her. your selfish, mean, jerk, dont care about anyone but yourself. you hurt my mom, me and my sister. i now know what not to look for in a guy!
I HATE YOU! :(
Rachel I want you to know that I will always be here for you. ALWAYS no matter what. I'm sorry that your dad lef you and your sister at such a young age. I know that had to be hard. Youre a strong girl. I know you will be okay. Remember God is always here for you. I love you Rachel! :)
ReplyDeletei love you to kayla thank you for everything. :)
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